silent tears

so no one told me it was going to be this hard...
that i'd learn to care so much that i'd hurt without warning .there are reasons and rhymes for everything and if Allah willed it he'll make it known. i dont understand things and i mite never...and im ok with that...but rite now..rite now god i miss him........his laugh, the way he interrupted me all the time.i'd never met anyone who talked so much! ever and i've been known to average 200 odd words a minute!

he made me want to learn...abt my religion...wanted me to learn 2 be patient...

i was accepted.

he helped me find peace within myself..made me smile again at a time i felt like i couldnt go on anymore.

there are words we dont say and then the moment..just passes u by.

n i walk with a smile n i live every moment of everyday just like i did two weeks ago...but these silent tears fall at nite...oh how they fall...beautiful sorrow, for someone i wanted to spend my life with.